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Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Los Angeles
Birthday: 1/12/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Dancin, watchin movies, listenin to music, reading, sleeping, hangin with my friends, did I say sleeping?
Expertise: Life
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
11/30/2003
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| How do you want something and not want it at the same time? Every morning I wake up, in plenty of time to get ready for work without rushing. Yet every morning, I do things that would cause me to rush to get ready to leave my apartment. With the exception of Saturdays. My sense of time is not grounded in reality when it comes to getting ready for things. I am aware of my inaccurate projection of how long it will take me to do something or drive somewhere, but I still go along with it anyway. Old habits are hard to break.
This is my morning routine: wake up before my alarm goes off at 7:02am. Surf music blogs, CNN, Facebook, and Gmail. When my alarm goes off, snooze it, because I always feel like I might want to take a 15 or 30 minute siesta. While I'm previewing/downloading new tunes I snooze my alarm 1-3 more times. When it is approaching 7:30, I start "getting serious" about wanting to get up, but usually wait until 7:35 before I hop out of bed, plug in the iron, turn on the shower and begin dashing about my apartment getting ready to leave the house at 7:50 (but usually 7:55). I judge how long I've been in the shower by how many songs have come blaring out of the speakers connected to my Airport Express. After 2-2.5 songs I'm drying off and dashing about multitasking, because I think that if I'm doing more than 1 thing then I'm being more efficient (although I know this is not really true either). I then proceed to walk out of the door 3/4 dressed (shirt usually unbottoned, pants almost zipped, shoes maybe tied, nothing tucked in, du-rag on my head but not tied, belt in the loops but not buckled). I complete these tasks while driving on LaBrea and getting on the 10 freeway for a mile because within a mile I know if I should get off and take the streets or not. All the while I am texting my mom or friends "good morning," finding my "ride to work music"- usually a mix between gospel and uptempo r&b/pop tracks, and hangin out on Facebook and other iPhone apps. As I get to work I walk/jog to my office while redirecting/reprimanding students, to make it just in time to write tardy passes. Oh, the irony.
I've made a committment to do more reading, so I've picked up a book that I thought I'd lost a few months ago called The Leadership Challenge. That's my "at work non-fiction read" while Always Running is a text I'm reading with a class. For good measure I'm also paging through How to Win Friends & Influence People. Ahh yes, I also picked up 100 Years of Solitude the other day, I'd like to conquer that one as well. What've I learned so far? The #1 desired quality in a leader is honesty, second only to being future looking, which is followed by a preference for competence. Good thing "on time" didn't make the top 3 hahaha.
Tomorrow's another day. | | |
| so yesterday i bought a real journal for myself. online, i wouldnt keep all of my innermost thoughts and feelings. the "regular"me with common sense wouldnt write them down on paper either but journaling is theraputic and can stimulate self help and growth. im still going to keep my online journal but id really like to begin journaling every day. i finished teaching the 6th graders at middleton elementary and my lil cousin is coming to visit on tuesday (very excited about that) her 21st bday was this past wednesday.
last nite i went to el torito with rob alicia chrystal dana and erica, then we went bowling and that was a lotta fun. today im up early to go to staples who is having a sale for teachers, then im off to run at the beach, rob and dana may join me, then im off to dance class where chrystal will join and dana may also. im not sure what im gonna do with the rest of the day. i might make brunch at my apt. i cooked 3 times last week! im not committed to spending less money at restaraunts and more time cooking. i can cook, i just always chose not to. so, i bought a cookbook yesterday and it's boutta be on and poppin.
time to get ready to go, ill holla! | | |
| When Sorry Comes Too Late
The invitation was received
Regrettably, it was thrown out after too much contemplation
Reflection can be your friend; it can also be the uglier side of a strengthening process
I do love you, still
Can I tell you that, at least?
I have realized something about love that I had not realized yet
I heard it sang once that love is not a game that you play to keep the winning hand with you
That is exactly how I played, and you caught on and put me on blast
The truth hurts, maybe more so when you’re trying your hardest to deny it daily
I fucked up
A year later, I am realizing what that really means
I’m sorry can come too late
Because even if I called you right now
I am afraid that I’m sorry would not be enough
Whoever said that it’s never too late to say I’m sorry
They’ve never been in my shoes
Once before this predicament presented itself to me
I guess this will become my life’s regret number two
I wish I had done things differently
You said that next time I wanted to communicate with you
To call you and not shy away from the impending confrontation
Did you really really mean that?
I guess I deserve it, one of the things that I fear most
Facing how I truly feel about you
About us
About me
Damn
Can you please excuse my I’m Sorry
For being so late
Finally, the maturity of my mind is catching up with my heart
There comes a time when I’m sorry is laughable, even absurd
At this point, what is more pitiful,
The fact that almost 365 days have passed since I last hurt you
Or the fact that it still preoccupies my thoughts sans a resolution
Why don’t I just leave it alone?
I’m sure that you have found a way to move on
Why is it so difficult for me to let you go?
Love, goddam you
Even this delayed
I have to say, more for my benefit than yours
Yes, I still have that selfish streak
Although it is now too overdue
I am sorry, deeply and honestly, I am sorry
Blame it on my youth
That I am sorry will never arrive, because it is too late
-REJ 7/17/06 | | |
| Hey Look! It's July 17th again 
I was reminded that I posted an entry this day last year, so in order to commemorate, I'll post one today as well. What a crazy year, I'd like to write a book solely off of the events of this year, I think it'd be a best seller. Most of it would be about hangin out with my friends, we say and do some of the craziest things. Anyway the school year is over as of about a month ago. One year down, one to go. The end of the school year was a busy time because there's a lot u gotta do as a teacher to get ready for the next year. I had a great year with my students, I'm looking forward to having an even better year starting in September.
On to more important things. Jesse came to visit the other week ago, we had a blast. It was good to see him again and hang out, it was also very nice to have someone from home who has known me for more than one year. I always enjoy spending time with him, he makes me laugh and we have interesting coversations. Chrystal and I have been hangin out a lot since Alicia is gone and Dana is working. We've gone to have lunch with her twice. We went to the W on Friday. It was underwhelming but the atmosphere was nice. There are so many good looking people in LA its ridiculous. There are also a lot of rich people here, what do they all do for work? Can I get just one hook up. All u gotta do is know somebody who knows somebody.
I've seen a lot of celebrities lately. I was Amerie and Megan Goode at Roscoe's Chicek and Waffles on Sunset. Then me and Chrystal saw Paris Hilton and Jake Gyllenhaall at Fred Segal on Melrose. We also saw this NBA star at Roscoe's but I forgot his name. 5 celebrities in one week, definitely more than I had seen in the entire year lol.
My aunt had a stroke yesterday and as a result can no longer walk on her own, even with a walker which is how she was walking before. My mom called me this morning and told me. My family is goin through a lot of changes right now. My sister will likely be moving away to college very soon, my aunt is going to move to Fresno with my other aunt so that she can take care of her. My mom is going to sell the townhouse and move into an apartment. I'll probably go to the Bay sometime soon to help out with everything and see how my aunt is doing. She won't be going home from the hospital, she'll be going to physical therapy and then living in assited living until the move to Fresno. I gotta go see my grandmother when I go home too, I feel triflin for not having done that in May.
I'm lookin for an apartment, lookin to move out of the Junles of LA and probably to Hawthorne, I've seen some OK places there. Rick got an apartment there and it's pretty nice and affordable. I went looking at places today. LOL I learned that just because an apartment is in "Hollywood" does not mean it will be nice. Hollywood is a large area, and not all of it is bourgiose (sp) I saw a place today that did not impress me in the least. Hopefully I'll strike gold soon.
I plan on starting my planning for next year sometime soon. It's cool because I've taught all of this before at this point, so I can do a better job this time of tracking what my students know and things like that. I wanna really make some gains this year, but that takes a lot of work and forethought. Que mas, que mas? I probably have so much more that I could write but it's all slipping away from me now.
I went running on the beach on Saturday morning. That was nice, the people at the beach were so plesant, saying good morning and things like that. My legs are VERY sore, which is kinda surprising since I do work out. I've heard that beach running is great because of the resistance that the sand creates and that it is a good workout for your legs, but goddam. I think I'll do some research into it. I need a good massage right about now.
Hey! I made dinner last nite! Nothin major, just chicken tacos, refried beans, and corn. I hardly ever cook for myself though. Today I had a Slurpee from 7-11 and it was tha bizzness. Man it was so on point, it was very hot today and the store was located convieniently on my way to the freeway which I passed by because of traffic. It pays to know alternate routes in LA. I need to buy some more shorts and a pair of tennis shoes. It's official, I do have a slight shopping addiction lol. I also love getting my haircut, what do you love? I recently picked up some LRG shorts and a Five-Four Tshirt, as well as a pair of jeans from The Gap that I am really feelin.
I started taking hip-hop dance classes at Edge in Hollywood, it's my Saturday workout plan. The classes are difficult because I tend to pick things up slowly as far as choreography goes (go figure, that's probably why I create my own choreography) but me and Chrystal have fun. I'm glad I am finally doing that, dancing is something that I love and want to stay connected to, and previous to now I'd never taken classes before. I hope to be that much better next year when working with the kids at my school.
Remember that one time I saw Rob like 3 weekends in a row or something. Phenomenal, he's a cool guy to hang with but we don't always connect as much as we used to back in the day. Partied with some of the new Corps Members a few weeks ago at this house party in Playa del Rey. It was fun times. also Jashawnai hooked it up by gettin us on the list to attend Ne-Yo's "So Sick" BET Award Nomination Party. That was stoopid fun. The DJ played all of these Yay Area Slaps and we saw Tech from MTV, the lil brother from Moesha (dont know his name), the Latino guy from New York Undercover, and of course Ne-Yo. Bobby Valentino was there too. They served chicken wings, fried catfish and desserts. Ne-Yo apparently knows how to keep things soulful lol. We also went to some BET Awards Afterparty but that didnt end up being THAT much fun. We left before the performances started cuz it was kinda wack and too packed up in there.
We may hit up the JP Morgan Chase Open again this year, and another Dodgers game, make it a tradition for the summer. Me and my friends do a lot of cool things, I love kickin it with them. We went hiking at Griffith Park, went to some beachfest in Hermosa Beach, spent the 4th of July in Hermosa Beach, have gone out to some pretty cool places, and defnintely eaten at really cool places (Toast being one of the list toppers at this point). We drove to Costa Mesa the other day to go to this really expensive mall. Any mall with Coutier (sp), Gucci, and Louis Vatton stores is out my range but it was fun to watch the rich people shop lol. When I'm lookin to not be single anymore I think I'mma go there for pickups because it's always nice to live off of someone's wealth lol jk.
That was in no way a comprehensive update but it was a glance at what's been up lately. Holla Back. | | |
| What it do? So, it's been 6 months since I last updated, I don't know how that happened. I guess just been busy and stuff. Anyway, my students and I went to the LA County Zoo today. I took all of my students except one because she got in trouble at home this weekend and her mom didn't want her to go. It was fun, the zoo was not as foul smelling as I remember. The kids were so excited to be seeing the animals, even the ones who had been to the zoo before. They all wanted to see the gorillas but their habitat was under construction, but the monkeys sufficed. THey all loved the reptile center with the anoconda and lizards. We only have 13 school days left (yay). I'm excited for next year, teaching 3rd grade again. Next year won't be as challenging, methinks. The kids are not as active behaviorally and they are also a little higher performing. I will miss my students, I love them. However, I will still see them around school and when they come visit me so I'm lookin forward to that.
My sister graduated from high school on Friday. That was exciting, I'm very proud of her. She's goin to college somewhere in New York, she's been accepted to 8 or 9 schools and has gotten several awards and scholarships this year to help out. She's all growed up, its crazy. 18 years old.... where did that time go? Drivin to the bay area was not my kinda fun, especially wit the heat. and u know a brotha didnt turn on the AC. That burns to much dang gas hahaha. I dunno if im gonna teach summer school this summer or get some other type of job.
While at home this weekend I saw Erica, Tiffany, Jeremy, Lisa, and Lance. That was very coo to hang wit my high school friends, I also kicked it with some Bay Area Corps Members. I read two books last week (very entertaining) I love to read, I'm gonna try to read as much as possible this summer. Ummm I dont wanna write more at this moment but I'll try to update more often.
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